I’m not sure :| I’m so sorry!

I’m in vacation in China :) it’s almost noon! I saw the fireworks last night! hahaha

:’)

thank you anon, I love you too

my entire school is truly taking this to heart… you could literally feel the silence on Friday. Everyone was shocked and now we’re just doing everything we can. We had a vigil where we wrote letters for his family and him to place on his grave. Now we’re just trying to raise money for his family to help with costs because honestly the last thing his family should be worrying about now is money.

and I’m so sorry for your school’s loss too :’( I’ve just been shocked at this month… everything seems so surreal. Nothing feels sane anymore to me.

Oh anon, I’m already crying and now I see this message. 

I hate feeling helpless. All I want to do right now is hug you and tell you that everything is going to be okay and that nothing like this lasts forever.

Sweet anon, there is never “no future”. Ever. You WILL have a future. You DO have one! It may seem like life right now is just throwing boulders at you but you are STRONG. I know you are. You have strength even you don’t know of. 

I feel your pain, anon. There have been plenty of moments in my life where things just got to a point where I though nothing would be better than death. Anon, there is. No matter what you think of yourself, you can’t deny that you are one day going to be amazing. You’re bright and incredible. You would be truly truly TRULY missed. Take it from someone who has just realised. Your life is just going through a phase right now. This phase — I’m not going to lie — sucks. It hurts you and it’s hard. You feel like no one is truly listening to you and no one cares. Anon, that’s just an illusion. Life throws these hard phases to trick us. But we have to prove to those hard obstacles that WE ARE STRONG. I know in my heart that you are better than this. “Suicide is never the answer” we hear all the time, right? If you’re contemplating suicide, that’s the last thing you want to hear right? But anon, you mustn’t think like that. You have to over come it. Once this part is over, you will feel an extreme weight lift off your shoulders.

You won’t feel like this forever. But if you end your life, how will you know? You wouldn’t know how long this feeling lasts… you wouldn’t know how successful you would have gotten in the future. I don’t want that for you. Everyone has these feelings. Hating everyone — like truly hating them — isn’t a lasting feeling. And if it is, then one day you will find people who care for you so much that hate will just be a mindless word in your head. 

This one person who you don’t hate — she cares right? It doesn’t matter if you’ve never met her. I have at least 5 very very very close friends. All from online. All I’ve never met. But all very important. Is she like that for you? Someone you can trust wholeheartedly? 

I can be that too. I don’t want you to hurt yourself. I want you to live a full happy and long healthy life. I KNOW you’re meant for more. The more people suffer in life, the wiser they are when they grow up. So live through this, and grow up into the wisest person. Have a life with a partner and true friends. When/If you have kids, tell them that it. gets. better. 

I love you anon. I truly do. I don’t have to to meet you to feel your pain. <3 Please think about it. It wouldn’t be worth it. YOU ARE WORTH IT. 

I hope he “turns good” and I say that in quotes because I don’t want him to lost his bad ass self in the process of trying to see past Cora. You know what I mean? And I want him and Emma to make out. nbd.

I’m sorry but:

omg please stop i’m going to cry again

OMG I AM?!

hahaha I don’t think I am!! 

But this is such a sweet message and so unexpected kmfalskdm :’) THANK YOU KIND SWEET DARLING ANON <3